She hopes she’s pleasing. She hopes
she’s doing a good job. She hopes he can tell she’s been practising.Making him happy was all that mattered
to her. There was a time when it wasn’t, when she’d cared about other
things, but that seemed a while ago. She felt embarrassed when she
remembered. How could she have been so silly? She’d even had a plan
for her life – one that didn’t involve bending and kneeling and
obeying and worshiping. It was lucky he’d put up with her long
enough for her to realise how stupid she was being.She hopes she can make it up to him.
She hopes she can show him how much she wants – needs – this. She
hopes he makes sure she’s never so silly again.