She walked into their shared apartment and placed her bag and coat into the closet right away. Checking herself in the mirror by the door she walked into the living room to find him sitting in his chair reading a book with a drink on the table next to him. He looked like he had been home for hours. He was confident, comfortable and in his element, but she knew that his schedule put him home only fifteen minutes before her. This was all some sort of a setup, she knew it.
“Not tonight” she said
“That’s perfectly fine, and a good evening to you too dear. Welcome home.”
“Sorry, I know you didn’t even say anything yet, but the whole way home I kept thinking to myself ‘not tonight’, and I just wanted to get the first word in knowing what you can do when you start talking to me.”
“So you don’t want me to make you stare into a candle, a spiral, or my pocket watch while I wipe your mind away and help you relax?”
“Not tonight.”
“That’s perfectly fine. We’ve been doing that for almost every night this past week and if you are in the mood for something different I am more than happy to oblige.”
“Thanks. Just walking through the door and talking to you I started to feel myself sinking back into that wonderful fog and I just didn’t want to spend the next few hours blankly staring at some hypnotic device as you guide me deep into an obedient trance.”
“That’s not what you want?”
“Not tonight.”
“That’s perfectly fine. I like this version of you. Standing up for what you want. Capable of looking me right in the eyes and telling me ‘Not tonight’ knowing just how much pleasure you could obtain if you gave yourself over to me willingly.”
“Not tonight.”
“That’s perfectly fine. Not denying you any pleasure, of course…we may have to find another method of getting that for you, but you have made it clear that you do not want to be hypnotized in the ways that I used over the past week.”
“Not tonight.”
“That’s perfectly fine, and I love the confidence in you that has kept your eyes locked upon mine during this whole conversation. It’s the kind of confidence that shows that you are willing to continue forward even if you don’t know exactly where, so long as you can stand your ground on something specific. You know that I am not going to use a candle, a spiral, or my pocket watch to take your mind away tonight.”
“Not tonight”
“That’s perfectly fine. You look beautiful standing in front of me staring into my eyes and so proud to be standing your ground even as you take off all your clothes. I bet you aren’t going to realize tonight that we talked about this a lot over the past week will you?”
Huh? she thought. “Not tonight.” her voice answered. Oh shit...was her last real independent thought.
“That’s perfectly fine. You’re starting to fall into a very different type of trance tonight. This last week you have volunteered to sink as low as you can go, but we both know that your personality requires you to fight back from time to time. We talked for a long time about how you would like to fight and resist against me only to lose in order to sink deeper into my control. We both know that there is only a small part of you that wants to fight and resist, and it’s not like that part of you is going to choose tonight to finally give into the candle, the spiral, or the watch. Do you remember what you are supposed to say when you want to try that new method to break your will completely?”
“Not tonight.” the response was automatic at this point, but her mind was active behind her voice. She questioned just what was happening, but felt secure knowing that hypnosis couldn’t make her do anything that she didn’t really want to do, so whatever this game was, she knew she had asked for it.
“That’s perfectly fine.” She melted every time he said that. He was so good to her and of course she should be good to him in return.
She looked at him, expecting him to say something else, but instead he just sat there in his chair. Finishing his drink as he stared at her, he held her gaze as he put the glass and his book away. His eyes had been captivating before he had ever introduced her to his hypnosis games. At times they appeared green, at others blue, and in the winter they seemed to be grey. Now they captivated her entire attention. She looked closer and closer trying to pick out each individual color within his iris. She almost didn’t register it when he continued to talk.
“There are other ways to take your mind away, and having you resist before capitulating is the perfect way to help you break through the barriers you have built that deny you real pleasure. You aren’t going to worry about what society thinks of you are you?”
“Not tonight” she replied before she fully caught up to what he was saying. Well, now that I’ve agreed to that I’m not going to worry about it.
“That’s perfectly fine. You don’t need to worry about anything beyond the walls of our apartment. I’m going to help you. You might not remember everything that we talked about over the last week, but if you think really hard and stare into my eyes I bet you can remember that there was a certain phrase that you had to say to me before we started a new process. Can you remember that phrase?”
“Not tonight”
“That’s perfectly fine. We knew that you would have to first resist, before you became confused, and that repetition would help. We have actually been through this process a few times as we cycle through your training. Is tonight the night that you are going to remember all of the other times?”
“Not tonight”
“That’s perfectly fine. You can keep staring into my eyes as you try and remember and every attempt to remember will send you down a labyrinth of thoughts that dead end into nothingness leading you back to wonder just how long you have been staring into my eyes with an open mouth. Thoughts drifting away as you sink down deeper and deeper. You feel weak on your feet in front of me. Every fiber of your being is staring into my eyes in the hopes that you can show me your strength, but every heartbeat sends a pulse through your body that makes you want to drop to your knees in front of me. Is tonight the night that you are going to let the part of you that resists prevent you from enjoying the pleasures of submission?”
“Not tonight”
“That’s perfectly fine.” She shuddered. “Staring into my eyes I want you to drop to your knees in front of me. I want you to do it slowly. Feel your knees getting weak looking into my eyes and feel the wonderful pull of the floor below you. Feel how you can’t stop yourself. Feel how nothing else exists in your mind but the fight between standing and falling to your knees before me. Feel how you are losing the desire to stand as your knees beg you to touch the floor beneath you. Knowing that the second your knees touch that floor that you will be a mindless slut with a mouth that is drooling for my cock. You know that the deeper you take my cock into your mouth the more mindless you will become, but you want to draw that out, you don’t want to get there immediately tonight.
“Not tonight”
“That’s perfectly fine. Your knees feel so perfect on the floor. You are stuck down in your submissive pose between my legs but staring into my eyes. I can see your desire and I know what you want. I’m going to make you earn it though. You don’t want to just jump right into putting my cock in your mouth tonight.”
“Not tonight”
“That’s perfectly fine. I want you to undress me with care and then spend your time with your tongue on my balls. Yes, just like that, and I continue to love the fact that you have not broken eye contact with me since we started. You are using your hand perfectly and your tongue to lubricate me from time to time just as I instructed you. I can tell that you are incredibly turned on at this point, but you aren’t going to beg me for sex tonight are you?”
“Not tonight”
“That’s perfectly fine. I am enjoying this immensely and see no reason to fall back into our usual routine. Are you sure that there is nothing you would rather do than get stuck on your knees giving me the most enthusiastic blowjob of your life with no regard for modesty or restraint?”
“Not tonight”
“That’s perfectly fine. As a reward for your efforts I want you to cum with me as your mouth moves up and down my cock. Feel your mind switching the nerves in your pussy for the nerves in your mouth. Feel the nerves of your clit moving into your lips as you bounce up and down on my cock. Feel your throat relax and wrap around my cock as you sink deeper and deeper. Your eyes staring back blankly into mine as this blowjob brings you more pleasure than you could ever imagine. And as I cum I want you to cum with me. I want to hear the muffled screams of your orgasm as your mouth stays glued to my cock and you swallow my load. I want to feel your whole body convulse underneath me from the joy of feeling my orgasm slide down your throat. Yes….Yes…That’s a good girl. Swallow it all down. That’s perfectly fine.”
