So… when I came out a few days ago, I said I was bi.
But I’m not actually sure about that?
I’m attracted to women. Always have been, always will be. But… I’ve also always fantasized about men dominating women, and I now realize it’s because I want to be the woman in that fantasy.
Last night, I masturbated while imagining I had a vagina and tits and I was thin and yougn and pretty and getting fucked by one guy while I blew another, and it was the best time ever.
But I’m not attracted to men. I just wanna be fucked by ‘em.
So am I bi? Or a very confused lesbian with a weird fetish?
I don’t know.
I have similar fantasies of being fucked by men but describe myself as a lesbian. I’m not attracted to nor do I really want any real intimate relationships with men, and I feel like calling myself bi gives the impression that I’m open to that. Bisexual just doesn’t describe the way I relate to my own sexuality the way lesbian does.
But maybe it fits you better. You don’t have to know what you want to label your sexuality as though. Labels are great in that they can communicate complex things like sexual orientation in a word, but also they’re imprecise and don’t really account for things like this or stuff like enbies existing. You just do you, and don’t let others police how you want to describe yourself.
<3 Thanks! It really helps to know there’s someone else who has feelings like this.